Puttering and Sleep

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I have hit the age where I putter around the house. Yesterday, there were mounds of laundry and cleaning up the house for the next week, but my heart is not feeling it this weekend. I do not sleep through the night anymore. I wake and wonder or putter around the house. I used to wonder why older people did not sleep so well and all I can say is that I have not slept a night in I do not know how long. I fear it has more to do with this cat that we adopted when our neighbors got evicted and left their cat. He is an inside-outside kitty and howels when he wants to be in, which is good so we can let him in. He comes and goes all hours, so when he sends up the howling alarm we let him out. He has a litter box but has never used one, so he goes outside and is very good about no accidents in the house. He is part of the reason I do not sleep. 

Another reason, is roof leaks, waiting on my roofing company to install my new roof and so far five new leaks. Rain comes again next week and I pray that they can get my roof done before Wednesday. I am not sure what happened, but something on my roof is no longer keeping out the rain. Life, whatcha gonna do?

So stress keeps me up, my husband snoring keeps me up, the kitty and well just life. Bills, coming in, and not so much money coming in. So what do I do, I putter around the house. I move things from left to right and a week later from right to left. Puttering around at night helps me sleep once I finally go to bed. 

Why is sleep so elusive? Why is it so hard to get sleep? Lord help me help my stupid self, so the song goes and I pray and I  listen for an answer and I feel I am not listening right, not puttering right, just not doing what I am supposed to be doing. 

I have a few small books on my Amazon and I just pulled my four binders or sightings. I have more online at Medium.com and other places like Spillwords, but, recently I have had no time to write. Between all that life demands and no time to write new things. So daily I write in my journal now. It is my new year thing. Not a resolution, but a promise to myself to document my life more. Hopefully, my kids will look at it one day and remember all the things we did together and see all  I hoped to achieve in this life. Right now all four binders sit on the floor and my goal is to combine some photos with my written word. I have done that in one book already. 

So I have the grandbaby today,whom I love and adore, so off to start the day and get moving. Second cup of coffee for the loss. Honestly, I think I am giving it up and starting my day with tea and/or water. Much better for my body. So I am on Amazon under Debbie Ealer if you want to look, but I have high hopes of putting together a bigger book with my writings soon.


May your day not be filled with roof leaks and may your day be marvelous! Happy Sunday, happy weekending, happy life.

XOXOXOX

Debbie


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