Winter Weariness
It is that time of year when I am weary, I am dealing with depression, and I am in pain from the cold weather. This is the time of year when I feel trapped. Trapped inside, but also trapped mentally. I refrain from going places that I may get covid from, which pretty much leaves me to the food store, because hello I have to go there, but other than that hiking trains for my sanity. I find myself slipping into a winter mood. My mood becomes somber. My days seem gray and I feel like I'm melting away. No one really sees me except at work, no one comes over and I don't dare go to anyones' home. Winter to me has always exhausted me. I am not a ski person, I am not a snow person, and in this bitter coldness, I am not an outside person. I find myself hibernating away like a bear, but he gets to sleep and I don't sleep with this nordic wind slamming into my house. Music and writing are my saving grace. I lose myself in listening to music. I sing in the car at the top of ...