Believe in Love
He came at this situation all wrong. He
wanted to walk away with no consequences for his actions. I was on the fence
about it I let him or did not let him. We had a kid on the way, we planned a
life together, and we just bought a condominium. He decided he did not want to be
tied down to the baby, the condominium, or me. He wanted to wander the earth
free. He wanted to head into the mist and disappear. I said "For crying
out loud this is our life, you are not a wanderer with no attachment, no
history, and definitely not alone. You have 7 brother and sisters and 20
cousins and a BABY!!! coming soon." He shook his head. He lowered his
eyes. He took a long drag of a cigarette and he got up, walked to the door, and
vanished. I was left sobbing, pregnant, and with a huge condominium payment. I
knew not how I would survive, but he was gone. I was still here, this baby
would be soon, and we needed a way to make our new world work. I would tell the
baby only good things about his/hers father. I would tell of our great love and
I would make this world so completely wonderful for my child. In addition, I
would always question every person they dated with the intensity of the CIA! My
life had changed in an instant and my views on this world left me questioning
all my morals and values. Life would never be the same again. I should have
never agreed to come to this coffee shop and meet the man I planned forever
with, because forever, in his mind, did not exist and I was too stupid in love
to see the warning signs.
Life just got a lot worse, but
my view of it all, well that is something I hope changes in time. I would have
to live life without trusting, loving, sharing with someone in this world. In
this moment, only a few after he walked away, I knew somehow my baby and I
would be okay!
Believe in Love!
Your storyteller/poet
Debbie
xoxoxoxoxox
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