Life and the Lovely Insanity of it All

 

Life and I have not been getting along these days. So many things are happening, and I wonder if this is all there is for me in life going forward until I die. I work until I die?  A friend recently asked if I was still doing photography and I said that  I realized I had not picked up my camera in a long time. 

I have my work online under my married name and maiden name. I miss picking up the camera and capturing life. I have my stuff on my comp, I have stuff on hard drives and USB drives as back up, but I have not loved taking photos lately. It seems to me I am forcing something that I have moved on from, so where does that leave me? Lost, wondering, pondering life. 

What do you do when you feel a shift in your universe? Where do you go for clarity? For me it is hiking into the woods, but I live in Georgia and it is hot hot HOT here already, so passing out on a trail and having the rangers come to find me does not appeal to me. 

So here I sit realizing how insane life is, what I love one time I do not love anymore and I do not know where I want to go from here. I know I want to achieve more. I know there is more for me to do, there are things I want to do including putting out a book on my poetry. I need time, I need to stop reading others' books and write my own. I know without writing and without photography I feel lost.

Are there times when you feel lost too? Since my mom passed away a few years ago I feel like I am just floating and now in a good way. Like I am hoovering watching others live and I am stagnant. Any ideas thoughts and or prayers would be greatly appreciated. 

I know I am not the only one feeling this way, so share with me what's going on in your world. Mine seems to be shrinking by the day and I do not appreciate that at all. 

I pray you are well and I pray your life is on track, but if you are a lifecoach or have had help through this life, share with me some wisdom because as John Mayer's song says, I am free falling.

Good to write to you and I hope to get back on that track regularly again soon. 

Your friend,

Debbie

xoxoxoxo